Well, my first week of college is coming to an end. I actually moved in last Thursday after coming back from HoneyRock in WI. Passage was amazing; I can truly say that it changed my life. I believe that God put myself and the girls in my cabin there for a reason. We were so open and vulnerable with each other. It was amazing. I had my own moments of vulnerability which were really hard to deal with at the time. I biggest one was after doing this high ropes course activity called the “pamper pull.” Pretty much the just of it was that you were harnessed in and then had to climb to the top of this approximately 30 foot high pole and then somehow get on top of the pole and then jump and try to grab a bandana that was dangling in front of you. Although we all made it to the top of the pole, a few of us had some issues. One of the girls in my cabin, April, fell off the pole and scrapped up her arm and leg…and then there was me. I started having what I am pretty sure was a panic attack. I was having problems breathing, I literally had to concentrate on breathing because I wasn’t doing it on my own, I was nauseous, and I was so scared. I knew in my brain that I was safe and that I was harnessed in so I wouldn’t fall or anything but I was so scared of falling. I have never experienced such fear in my whole life. I eventually had to accept that I couldn’t go farther and let go. As soon as my feet touched the ground I started sobbing. I don’t think I have cried that much in my life and especially not in front of people I barely knew. It took me at least 3 hours for me to be able to think about the situation without crying. It was probably the hardest thing that I have ever done. Throughout the 9 days we were there, we all were so open with each other and talked about things that we had never told anyone. As I said, Passage changed my life. Anyway, I moved into my dorm room last Thursday and had orientation until Wednesday. I was so ready for classes to start; I felt so tired of meeting people and saying my name, major, where I was from, and what dorm I was in. Since I had Passage, I felt like I had had a week of orientation so I didn’t want another 5 days of it. There were a lot of mixers/socials and I was sick of it. I met some awesome people though. Classes started Wednesday and I am taking Bio 241, Chem 236, Eng 101 (Classics in Western Lit), and Bith 111 (Gospel, Church, and Culture). Both bio and chem have labs so we will see how that goes, but I am excited. I also applied for a job in Student Health Services which I have an interview for on Tuesday. Although I may be busy, it will be nice to kind of work in health care. Right now instead of doing home work, I am writing this post and watching the Colts-Packers pre-season game. I am so excited for football to start again, both college and NFL. Next week the Wheaton sports start too so that will be awesome. Well that’s all I have for now, but hopefully I will start posting more than I have. Until next time.
Katie
